If there are any song that currently capture my attention, it’s the song about what it means to become who I wanna be. To be someone passionately chasing my own dreams, to go to the place where I belong. Lately I didn’t perform well in my study. It’s as if I’m really really ready to set out my feet from my campus, and choose a field of study which suits me entirely. And so the song which capture my attention right now is Michael Bolton’s Go the Distance (in Disney’s Hercules version). Here’s the lyrics:

I have often dreamed
Of a far-off place
Where a great warm welcome
Will be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I’m meant to be

I will find my way
I can go the distance
I’ll be there someday
If I can be strong
I know ev’ry mile
Will be worth my while
I would go most anywhere
to feel like I belong

I am on my way
I can go the distance
I don’t care how far
Somehow I’ll be strong
I know ev’ry mile
Will be worth my while
I will go most anywhere
to find where I belong


I will beat the odds
I can go the distance
I will face the world
Fearless, proud and strong
I will please the gods
I can go the distance
Till I find my hero’s welcome
Right! where! I belong!

A lil bit naive if I said I should motivate myself right now to perform well in my campus. Even when I know, that’s how the society works. To train and do what is being valued in the society. To perform what is being ordered by the authorities and experts. Yeah, that’s the life everybody do.

The solution for my problem is quite simple actually: “Get up! Just do it! Don’t think!”

Yet for me, it’s not that simple… It involves element of hatred, disappointment, angst and fear. Or perhaps… I’m just afraid to begin…